Stress, cortisol, and fat

I'm quite sure I have a cortisol problem. Whether it's Cushing's disease, or something else, I think the root is cortisol.

I don't process stress well. If I have a very stressful experience, I get symptoms. My face gets really red (not rosacea, I realize now--that would be why the rosacea meds don't work for me), I shiver, and/or sweat, and afterwards I feel completely exhausted. This is not normal! That, as I've researched, is an overdose of cortisol, the stress hormone. It also causes fat.

But what to do about over production of it? I don't know for sure. I'm looking into supplements. I figure it won't hurt. I've got to try something after I finish this diet cycle, or else the weight will certainly zoom back whenever my body decides to freak out.

I think my last cycle either triggered, or was coincidentally abutted to, one of my rapid weight gain cycles. I think losing 100# plus having back surgery was too much to ask of my body for a year's time.

I look back now, and wish I had of foregone that last cycle. I wish the doctors have of given me better advice. I was just so excited--I thought I had SOLVED IT. I thought I could power through and reach my weight loss goal and then at least that health problem could be sorted. I see now the error of my ways!

So, that is why I'm attempting a short cycle this time. Yeah, I want to be back to where I was weight wise, but I'll have to wait. In all likelihood I'll be doing more back surgery this summer (my last, I believe), and it'll be good to try and get strong for it. Let my body heal from this (I still don't feel myself after my last back surgery six months ago), and build up. And, let's hope, not gain any weight back. :)