Hello, Russia!

I don't know why you're reading, but I'm glad you are!  One of my ancestors was Russian. 

I'm waving in your direction right now.  Thanks for reading!

A little progress

Ok, so I've made it two nights without snacking now.  I hope momentum is on my side!  Very soon I've got to man up and get on the scale, then take more decisive action to get back to where I was.  Except for when I'm on an HCG cycle, weight loss pretty much doesn't happen for me.  But I've got to try.  I don't want to have to re-lose the same weight AGAIN two years in a row.  My goal is to get back to where I was before the surgery so the next HCG cycle (February?) will be more effective.

Wish me luck!

Autumn

It's 6:45 a.m. and a beautiful morning.  What's not beautiful is I've been awake since 3:45.  Why?  Wish I knew.  This tends to happen to me every early autumn; I wake up far too early.  Thankfully, it goes away.  But it makes things difficult for awhile.  I'm not a good napper, so I end up needing to get into bed ridiculously early to compensate.  No fun.

This pending week Anna's external classes start (ballet, contemporary dance, and writing group).  This means my time of not having to drive is over.  Mark's schedule is just not compatible most of the time.  I drove myself and Anna to physical therapy yesterday.  It went better than I thought, but I did get some physical therapy massage while there; that won't happen at Anna's activities!

This last week we sort of started school.  I ended up calling it "Review and Preview Week," and we didn't get much done.  This is a strange phenomenon for me.  It's not that I didn't do the prep (I did, before my surgery).  I just haven't felt ready to start, which to me feels so lame.  Yeah, I know we have time.  Homeschooling is so much more concentrated then conventional school, and Anna and I do it well.

But I don't want to feel flat.  A lot of the time I just feel discouraged, sore, and exhausted.  I mope around and eat too much.  When I'm doing fun things (like last week our friend Jack and his kids came over for a visit and it was great) I'm ok, but most of the time, I'm Eeyore.  I feel like I've lost my Sandraness, and it's not in a hurry to come back.

Trying to reenter my continuum

Today we went to my dad's house for lunch.  It was a great day, very relaxing.  Mark had to work at 3, so Anna and I stayed a couple of more hours and Dad took us home.  I'M EXHAUSTED!  The most work I did was put a few dishes in the dishwasher.  What gives?!  It's frustrating to me, though not unexpected, I suppose.

I want to do more things again.  Tuesday school starts and there are other things going as well.  I know I need to build back up, but still, is there no credit for time served?  No early release for good behavior?