1 full pound today. Neat! Love it! I was pleasantly surprised as my face was particularly puffy today and I got bad sleep last night. So, there you go, seeing isn't necessarily believing.
I'm 1/3 of the way done with this cycle now. The hunger is getting more tolerable; or perhaps I'm getting more used to it. Not all the time.
Tomorrow is Anna's birthday and we're in full prep mode. It's rather hard, because I don't get to eat the food I'm making, both for the kid/parent party and the quiet family dinner after. And, I'm so darned fatigued from lack of food (mostly protein), it's hard to get stuff done. Thankfully, my tendonitis is in full retreat.
I don't like the emotional roller coaster. It feels like my emotions are a shaken up snow globe sometimes. I'm trying not to believe everything I think. Good advice for us all, I'd say.
Yesterday morning, things were not great. School was a challenge, and I felt poorly. Then I made the mistake of getting out the calculator and seeing just how far I am from my goal, versus how close I was last spring. It made me sad, especially since I simply cannot tolerate long cycles, let alone multiple long cycles in a row. I need to accept that this is the best I can do and keep looking for a solution (and hope and pray the doctors can actually earn their money and find out the root cause of my disorder).
It's so darned hard when it looks to the world that I'm just a fat girl with no self control or discipline. And yes, I know in my head that those who REALLY count know the truth. But it's hard being looked down for what's universally perceived as a failure. You know?
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