Blue blog (you have been warned)

I didn't weigh. Cowardice at its best. I figured I'm blue enough already, and I'm eating well, so it is what it is. Maybe I won't weigh (unless I start playing fast and loose with my diet) at all. I can only do so much. As much as I'd like to think otherwise, I have very little control over what my (stupid) body does. Like now, and this virus.

I almost never "get sick." I eat low sugar, get a lot of sleep, take vitamins, generally live a very healthy lifestyle. And when I do get cold bugs, they tend to be mild and go away quickly. Or like a few months ago, I got a horrible virus, but it went away quickly.

This one...not quickly. Anna and I got sick the day after dance weekend ended (So, June 20 we were sick). It's a weird virus, one Mark's heard of at the store. It gets you, seems to be fairly minor, seems to be going away, then goes guerrilla and kicks your butt. For weeks.

What's the most problematic for me is the laryngitis. That started a week ago today. I've done everything in my power to make my voice better, but it's not happening. I can't croak out anything.

With being ill, I've had to cancel thing after thing after thing (and I have so limited time as I'm leaving for my surgery at the end of this month), things that won't be easily rescheduled when I'm better. People are nice, and I know it's not my fault, but it's distressing.

And now we're getting into the canceling really important things, like speaking in church Sunday (long planned), some friends visiting from across the pond to hear me speak, etc. I still feel ill, but I can work with that. Not being able to speak, that's impossible for me. I've been unable to call people, or even really see people. And it's not showing any real signs of relenting.

I worry constantly about VBS next week. I will be there. That's never been in question for me. Even if I feel this sick, I can be there. It'd suck, but so does life in general, so there you go. And I know I can write notes (perfect with my hand problem--argh) and have Mark be my Talking Mouth Human if necessary. But come on, does it HAVE to be necessary?

I'm feeling blue and discouraged and that's a fact.