Definately Sophomore Slump

Up 2.2 pounds today. Gee, thanks! Lame. I know it's not "real," but it still is worrisome and disappointing. Yesterday's stabilization didn't go as well as before. I felt sick each time after eating, especially last night. Ugh. I know it will shake down and be ok, but right now...

I am quite glad to have a few months off. Even though I'm still heavier than I'd like (about 40 above where I think I can say, "Ok, I can live with this..."), losing a lot of weight in a short time isn't all fun and games.

As I yelped like Scooby Doo upon taking a step (that weird calf muscle thing), I thought, "Yeah, having a break for my body to just rest and get strong is a good thing."

Six weeks today from my surgery. I'm scared. You'd think after having so many, I'd be less scared, but it doesn't work like that. Just thinking about it I feel the nausea and terror that happen to me every time I go into the OR. I quail when I think about my typical surgical recovery time (slow and painful). And I want to hide under the bed when I think about the pain that I'll experience having to *sit* on a plane.

"I tried to drown my sorrows, but the bastards learned to swim..."