For the first time, it did not hurt. Not a pinch, not a burn. I take this as a very good omen. I loves me some Loading Days. I am enjoying eating like a horse and no mistake.
I still feel rather pissy I have to lose weight I've lost recently. It seems the summer session was a waste. It didn't go right (despite me following all the rules to the letter) and now I've gained most back. Grrr.
I know it's silly to dwell on what cannot be altered and just to move ahead, but still...I fret and worry. What if this doesn't work (long term)?
Oh well, as of Tuesday I'm back in the saddle. Today I went to church for the first time since my surgery. I knew it was a good time to go because it'd be short (no waiting for Anna SS). My back burned. But it was good to be there. It was not good to be in the lawnchair again. I'd hoped those days were behind me. Maybe they'll never be behind me.
It does feel kind of good to be getting back on the weight loss thing and going back to church. It feels like my life is starting forward again. I even shaved my legs today (first time since surgery!). It hurt! But, despite my fair skin and hair, I was starting to look like a satyr.
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