Yep, this morning. It was with glee I tossed my materials. Three more days 'til bacon. The bad news I, at the behest of the stabilization materials, looked at both the packages for bacon and sausage: both have sugar. RATS! So it looks like I'll have to buy "expensive" bacon and sausage for the next three weeks. Grr. The food on this diet has been spendy. But I certainly feel better spending food money on that rather than ice cream.
I'm feeling pretty weak (physically, not mentally). I hope I can make it all the way to Thurs. Some people falter at the end, start gaining and having ankle swelling (protein deficiency), and need to transition early. I hope not, but it is what it is. I could just be really tired from this weekend. And I sure feel worn out from all the festivities. Worth it, though.
So I've lost 45# now. 1.2 yesterday! Today's weight is supposed to be the baseline weight for the whole period of time until I get back on the horse (@7 weeks as the calendar flies). TPTB say you're to stay within two pounds on either side of the LIW (Last Injection Weight), so that's a four pound radius. I'm rather chapped about it because I'm 2.5# above Decade of X. Oh well, I'll get there in time. If all goes well and let's face it, I was born under a lucky star, I should be 60# down in time for my surgery.
I've decided to not focus on my emotional reaction of feeling the next several weeks is wasted time I can't be losing weight. I've decided to use my time constructively, to further refine my new lifestyle. There's a lot of new vegetables I want to try, for example. I need to continue with the water drinking, and preparing healthy meals for all of us.
Pretty much the only exercise I can tolerate (stenosis and disks) is pool walking. I hate chlorine, but I hate other stuff more. So we've been going. I will continue that as well. I figure however I can get even a little stronger before my surgery, the better it will be.
So the plan: do my very best with stabilization and maintenance eating. Exercise as much as I can. Vitamins. Water. Patience. All good things.
A number of acquaintances have come up to me and asked about the diet. They seem to think it's a magic bullet. It ain't. They all have a friend who they think it might be the right thing for. It might. But it might not.
Here's my 2c. I think this diet is an excellent tool for someone who has to lose maybe 15# and who already eats healthfully. I know a number of women who gained during menopause, for example. Or after surgery. A short course will net you 15#. And it doesn't take all that long. And if you're already a healthy eater, it could be the ticket.
If one has a more serious weight problem, one won't be successful unless they're already making healthy changes. It's not easy. It's HARD. And it takes a heck of a lot of commitment. No, I'd imagine most people wouldn't have the early diet trauma I had. But even so, it's hugely challenging! And it doesn't stop here. The changes must be permanent. It's not a golden ticket.
I wasn't ready in January. And I crashed and burned. I realized it last night: I had to be willing to give up my right to eat junk food, however rarely. I had to lose the chip on my shoulder that constantly screamed, "It's not fair!" No, it's not fair. It's not fair my metabolism sucks. It's not fair I cannot metabolize sugar. It's not fair I'm burdened with obesity on top of everything else. But, dwelling on that and willingly anesticizing myself with chocolate doesn't do anything to help me. No, I will likely never be able to eat "like everybody else." I have always eaten far less than Mark yet weighed far more.
But I am ready to pay the price to be healthier. I'm ready.
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