We went to the same naturopathic medical practice for 10 years. It was sold from one doctor to another, and we really liked and trusted the purchasing doctor, so it was all good. Then, this doc decided to come and go. Once the fill in doc was a bad fit, the last time we liked the fill in, but didn't have tons of faith in her as a good fit for us. But overall, the experience was good.
Then, the owner doc decided not only to not come back, but to close the whole deal. Ok, so I'm resisting the urge to go on a rant about being a trust fund baby who dabbled in medicine as a hobby. Ok, deep breath--enough said.
The bottom line is I went in Friday, picked up our charts and left for the last time. I felt surprisingly bad. The second fill in doc has me set up for my hcg cycle, and should I desire to do another one (the jury's out), we can go see her in Gig Harbor (ugh, not close to where we live).
But as I left, I couldn't figure out *why* I felt so bad. I think it's because we put our faith in them, and they let us down. And that's a sucky feeling. Especially for me, being chronically ill, I tend to need to believe in my healthcare providers. And this one really seemed to care about our family, and oftentimes helped us a lot.
And it leaves a hole. There's no one there to take that place. I don't like being cut loose on my health journey. It does seem lately there's been a lot of cutting loose going on, and I feel like I'm dangling--or floating--and I don't know where I'm going to land.
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