Finally!

I should have written this a week ago; it would have been better. Now the core of what I planned on talking about has fallen victim to attrition. Sorry! But, last night my friend told me just get it out there anyway. So if it sucks, it's his fault (heh). Ok, then!

Well, our vacation wasn't what we planned, but it was what we needed. We got sick, especially Anna and me. It wasn't "serious," but it was formidable. It was a nasty cold bug that kept roaming from one part to another (bad cough, I lost my voice for five days, then I had an earache, etc.). It was so bad it postponed, then canceled, our trip to Orcas. So, we spent the whole week (and change) home.

What a blessing! We weren't too sick to enjoy movies and food, and Mark had a different pre-existing virus, and was ahead of us, so the first few days when we were too sick to do much but lie on the couch, he took care of business. And we rested. And we ate. And we watched movies. And some days, even Mark didn't leave the house. We've been so busy with life (Anna's schedule, Mark's two jobs, and the holidays), we were worn out. This was a wonderful time of recharging and relaxation. And, since we were scheduled to be out of town, we didn't have anything to do! Ahhhhh. Mark and Anna went and saw Hugo at the end of the week, which was fun for them. I felt a little bad being unable to go, but I was feeling particularly bad (just when I'd think I was ok...argh!), and my back makes movie theatres problematic anyway.

So, during this time, something good happened: my health took an upswing. A lot of my weird (cortisol related?) symptoms relaxed. So, even now, I am still feeling somewhat better overall, physically and emotionally. Yay! The only thing I'm concerned about is that since I seem to have reached the end of a bad cycle, my pending test won't be accurate. Heya, if you pray, please pray for accurate test results for me, will ya? :) Thanks.

Something else. This might sound odd, but roll with me. I remember after the second hcg cycle, I had trouble stabilizing (not like this last one, of course), but it went on for awhile. Then I realized, after awhile, suddenly I felt different, a sea change, if you will. I felt (and I can't explain how) that I had stabilized. I just felt...different.

I feel that way now! And, I verified with the scale: stabilized. Damn, too bad I gained 60 pounds back (groan). But, I could have gained the rest back, so I'm not going too far down that road. I still have to eat carefully, but now it feels like there's a point again, if you follow me Mr. Frodo. So I'm back to being more judicious in my employment of simple carbs (scarbs). I'm 2.4# above Decade of X (you again!). I'm going to try and nudge my weight back down into the Decade of X. Perhaps a steak day and continued avoidance of scarbs might do it.

I fully expect this to be a temporary situation! WHEN they diagnose me and we start treatment, the weight problem should be more within my control (Don't laugh; could happen!). Then it might take care of itself. Or the hcg diet can happen again, and it would stabilize properly. Or both. I am going to talk about the diet with both Dr. Nice and Dr. Impressive in two weeks.

So, there you have it: the virus that was a blessing and the weight that stopped just in time to save me from buying more clothes. We move forward.