Last night I was sort of planning on making my killer possibly world famous Mexican dark chocolate brownies with mocha Kahlua extract. I was tired (as per usual) and my back hurt (as per usual), but they only take 10 minutes to put in the oven (Can you tell I've made them before?).
It was 9. For a long time, I didn't eat after dinner. Ever. I've lost my way; I know that. I also know it's okay to give myself a break. My body's going through a lot right now. And, on top of that, I'm anemic again, so I need the extra strength (No, I'm not self deluded enough to think sugar and flour is the preferred fuel at this time, but even so...).
So, I stood in the kitchen a moment. Then I thought of something. You'll love this--wisdom from Po. Yes, Po: The Kung Fu Panda. OK, not him specifically, but the movie. As I was at that point where I'd either get out the ingredients from the baking cupboard, or not, I realized: the cup I seek to fill has no bottom.
I was not going to eat because I was hungry, or because we were having a nice treat with dinner, I was going to eat to make myself feel better. And that cup has no bottom. So, I made a cup of tea, and spend the remainder of the waning hours on the couch with my book.
Go you! That is awesome!
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