Despair

Got home late Saturday night, waited until today to weigh, to give the inevitable flight water retention time to go away.

Wait for it...

I gained over 11 pounds in one week. I know, how is that even possible? Even for me. But there is precedent. People tend to think I exaggerate when I talk about how my body doesn't work right.

So now I've gained back 19/21 pounds I lost on the last awful, expensive cycle. I feel so awful.