I realized this morning, today is a fresh, baby day. I've been struggling with eating just too many carbs. Yes, we've kept all the healthy stuff in there (lots of produce and protein), but the carbs have been there too. And that's not working for me.
I jest not when I say I still gain even when I'm not eating simple carbs (scarbs), it just slows the rate of gain. But that is better than now, where the gain is happening quickly.
My body does this. It's murder to get weight off. It'd be easier to split atoms with the power of my mind. But as soon as I stop the rigid weight loss diets (or even before), the weight starts to come back, often with alarming speed.
I hoped so dearly that hcg was the answer for me. :( I suppose it still could be and because of bad advice from doctors I did too much. But at this point? To still be gaining and not have stabilized? It's certainly not a *good* sign.
My plan is to try one more round right after the holidays. I am hoping it's been long enough without the meds and diet, and maybe this time it will again work properly and stabilize properly. And if it doesn't...? We'll cross that bridge when we come to it.
But as for today, it's a new day. I have healthy, simple-carb free food planned. It's been a long time since I've gone a day without them. I want today to be that day.
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