Weight ok

The week of my daughter's dance recital wasn't good as far as low scarbing goes.  One day led to the next and so forth.  While I didn't eat much, it's me we're talking about, and I gained four pounds.  Just that fast.

The good news is the past few days I've been very disciplined and entirely avoided scarbs, and it's almost all gone.  .8 up from X.00.  I'll bet it'd be all gone tomorrow if I wasn't going on an adventure with Anna 'til tomorrow evening.  Oh well, at least it's still coming off.

This surprises me, as my stress level has been high, and it's showing.  My face is cortisol red, my back hurts all the more, and my fatigue level is way too high.  Help, like time, you just can't buy, and I don't have much of either!

My mom used to come up 1-2x per week.  That was awesome.  I get way jealous when people talk about their sisters coming over and either helping with the house, or spending time with their nieces/nephews so the mom can work on the house!  Once and awhile Anna will have a sleepover and I always relish the time to be able to work on the house/chillax, while knowing Anna's happy and in a safe place being well cared for.

The headlong dive off the (surgical) cliff is coming fast and furious.  I need to focus more on the week beforehand I get to spend with Sea Monster and family.  That part makes me smile; it's the rest of the summer that makes me cringe.

No jobs for my husband, either.  I can't believe it looks as if we'll have to have another sucky year of him both working at the sucky store and sucky subbing.  So, no teaching job, and no surgery free summer--again.  This was supposed to be when we reached the finish line!  Ok, last summer we thought that, too.  It gets harder to swallow each time we get a bone crushing dissapointment.  Hard to accept another full year (at least) until we reach our goal--surgery and Safeway free summers!  We're teachers, darn it--we're supposed to have easy and fun summers!  It's wrong on so many levels.

Will it ever happen for us?