Three Sundays ago I wasn't at church, and it was the last "loading day" anyway. Last Sunday, and today, were hard. With the plan, I don't eat from dinner the evening before (usually around 5) until lunch (usually around 11). We don't usually get out of church until nearly 12, then there's the inevitible grocery store stop. So my blood sugar gets way low. This time I brought my lunch apple to have (though I'm loathe to eat it "out of sequence," though they say it's ok). It only helped marginally. I still feel out of sorts and extremely low energy, though I had lunch. My back's freaking out, too. High pain level, low energy level.
Today was "birthday Sunday" where a big cake is laid out. I wanted a piece really, really bad (especially being low energy). And it made me feel bad to think I'll probably never be able to have a recreational piece of cake again. What I've learned about obesity and its nature (you can control it, but it's not "curable"), it's just not something to have, especially all by itself, not part of a protein-rich meal. And it makes me feel :(.
Somebody FINALLY noticed I'm thinner. It likewise makes me feel bad that I'm so fat, it's not even noticeable when I lose 25#.
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